A decade ago when i was still living in my home town in the Himalayan foothills,a new bunch of young boys moved to house next to mine.All of them were from other parts of the country and were there for work or studies,as my home town has one of the highest concentration of schools and colleges in the Pakistan.Anyway,they were the lousiest teenagers i had sen until then.They rarely washed,were too loud all the time and wanted all the neighborhood to share their choice of music.One of them boys was particularly strange.Something about him was not right.All of them used to wear kinda western dresses all the time,such as tight trousers,t-shirts and jeans,which were at that time forbidden for girls(Not anymore)and were a very manly kinda dressing.This strange boy used to wear the dirtiest pair of jeans,had the shortest possible hair,and was a chain smoker.One day while shopping at the local grosser store,i happened to come across this strange boy,but didn't speak with him.A friend of mine poked me,and asked me "what do you think about him"? and i told him,i thought he is strange and that's all.But then he revealed that he was in fact a girl.I was shocked,as he dint look like a girl at all.The friend of mine told me that he thought the same,and only when he spoke to this strange boy,he realized that he/she has a girly voice,and then she confirmed that she is a "girl".
It was very abnormal for a girl to live like that,back then in that part of the world,and people despite knowing that he is a girl would still treat him as a boy,and were very accepting towards him despite his out of normal behavior.
After some asking around,i found out the she was an orphan,and from a rich family.Her parents died suddenly in a car crash,leaving behind her and two other siblings,younger than her.Although they left a lot of wealth behind them,but the relatives who took over the children were very greedy and evil.She was ten when her parents died,and as per tradition,the close relatives took over their upbringing.By the time she was 14,the evil relatives sold her house and somehow all the money vanished,which her parents had left for her.Then their behavior towards her changed and without saying this,they made her and the younger siblings to leave their house and live on their own.Thats when she decided to be "strong" and take care of herself and her two brothers.
The only way to be "tough" was to be a man,or behave like a man,as "men are tough" (aren't we?),and her psychological gender transformation was triggered.
By the time she moved near my house,she was about 17,and was no way a girl.Her body language,her dressing,her behavior,all were masculine.In fact she was so sure that she is a man,that the person in front of her,under the influence of her confidence,despite knowing that she was a woman,will still treat her as a man (All of us transmit some kinds mental waves,don't we?).By looking at her i was sure of my theory,that our thoughts effect our hormones,specially in the growth ages,or teen ages.He/she did not have any womanly features.No tits,no coca cola hips,and was a bit hairy too.My be her thoughts were so intense that her body started secreting male hormones instead of feminine.
Although she was doing good.He/she had a job and good income,but did she really needed to be a man to be tough?
I understand that our society at that time was a bit patriarchy and all,but still,cant women be tough and still stay women?